Update On Latest Crisis

So after my last post I was still not feeling that great so sent a (what I thought was - and a friend confirmed it to be so) nice but truthful email to Rupert. I basically said that as I'd not heard back from him for a few days and now wasn't expecting to, but was still feeling a bit shaken by our conversation on Monday, so wanted to at least have the chance to explain and come to some sort of understanding about what happened - especially considering we had both clearly had very different impressions of the dates we had been on. I explained again why I had been anxious and then told him that I kind of got the impression he expected everything to be perfect and concentrated on that it wasn’t completely perfect instead of enjoying the nice things that did happen. He had commented that he didn’t understand why he’s single in his 30s and I reckon I have a pretty good idea why now!

The thing is unfortunately with me there’s never going to be perfect anything – I’m too human! And to be honest, I kind of prefer things not to be perfect, gives you an insight into who someone is and how they perceive the world and deal with difficulties. For me it’s part of the adventure of life and adds meaning to things.

Anyway I sent this off and fairly shortly after he called and left a message saying he was shocked by my email. Oh dear. I rang him back an hour later, and got his voicemail also. In the end it was another day until we could speak, ie today.

He was not happy about my email. But I was left feeling so rotten after our call on Monday, I'm not sure what he expected? If he’d contacted me on Monday night or any point the following day that might have helped, considering he left me feeling like he’d had an awful time on our dates and I was a cold confusing fish. Anyway we spoke for a while, explained everything to each other, he told me he had actually had a good time as well, it's just a shame he didn't mention this on Monday, instead of going in full blast with the problems.

In the end we both agreed it wasn't happening. I expected this and not sure I would have wanted to continue things after he was so harsh on Monday night, that he chose to concentrate on the negative, and that things have been so problematic so early on, but I’m still a little sad, I did like him regardless of all this.

It's a shame really, he didn’t display any weirdness whilst we were together so I’m not sure why it’s come out after. Maybe he’s more sensitive than I thought? He seemed like a chilled and funny surfer dude but I guess who can really tell after three dates?

Sigh.